Friday, October 25, 2013

So Long, October

How is it already the end of October? 
I swear, time ticks by faster on the west coast. 
It's been a mix of calm and chaos - without much of a middle ground. 
Some months are like that I suppose, 
but all I wanted for fall is for things to hold steady. 
Did you know that autumn represent wisdom and maturity? 
 I don't feel either of those things at all really. 
My feelings have been mixed up all month,
 making me feel a little confused and foolish.
photo is my own
I think it's tied to the notion of letting go.
Letting go of pain points at work. 
Letting go of circumstances that don't pan out as planned.
Letting go of the questions without answers...
That's hard for me. 
I'm no good with the act of releasing.
I cling to the things that I invest in,
and fiercely 'miss' the expectations that fall flat. 
I bless and let go and then er, I take it all back and try it again. 
You can't say I'm not persistent! 
But there comes a time when one has to step forward and move on. 
In November, I'll do better. 
Have a wonderful weekend my friends. 
Enjoy these last few days of October,
 both the calm and the chaotic. 
xo

 


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